Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Mt. Aire

Even though I'm eager and excited to start my Seattle life, I'm sad to be leaving Salt Lake during my favorite season....autumn. Today, I've especially lamented having to say goodbye to my beloved Mt. Aire and it's radiant fall colors. I'll miss them by about a week or two.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Nightmare

Last night I dreamt I was at Yellowstone with my dear friend Hess. In the dream, she told me that she had never been to the Old Faithful Inn, and I was absolutely thrilled to show her what I consider one of the most magical places on earth.

Why was I so thrilled, you may wonder. Allow me to explain. Growing up (not included in last night's dream) my family had a fun tradition of making the roadtrip to Yellowstone over UEA weekend (usually in late October). It was our way of communing and helping put that magnificent park to sleep before its long winter. We would all crowd into the station wagon, loaded with our warmest of winter clothing, and drive the length from Salt Lake in one day. Easily the best and most rewarding part of the trip was turning into the driveway of the Old Faithful Inn and getting your first view of her majestic wooded roof and her sweeping wings with the dormer windows. We would gather our belongings, check in at the front desk, and find our rooms without delay. Some years we stayed in the original wood structure with rooms furnished with beds and a sink....toilets and showers were down the hall and shared with other Inn guests in your hall. Other years mom and dad splurged and got rooms with en suite bathrooms. Both were fun...we were usually just relieved and so happy to be there. We had arrived and guaranteed an enchanted weekend.



We would spend our days touring the geysers, each of us seeing how our favorites were holding up. I always loved the simple Morning Glory pool, and was deathly afraid of the deceptive Beauty Pool where you if were at the right angle, you could see the skull of a bison who probably went to the pool's edge to water and collapsed due to the shock of being scalded. We would travel to Yellowstone Lake, peek in the windows of Lake Yellowstone Hotel (which was vacant for years and years when I was a child), cross Fishing Bridge, brave through Porcelain Basin with plugged noses, go north to Mammoth to see the elk hanging out besides the buildings, gaze at the gorgeous Mammoth Hot Springs, and see as many mud pots, geysers, and wildlife as we possibly could in the daylight.

My favorite part of the day, however, was when the sun went down and it was too cold to be outside any longer, and we would retire to the Inn. I felt like the Inn was mine to explore, study and discover. I loved finding the most secluded stairways, or look closely at the wood pillars used in all aspects of decoration, and dream of what it would be like to live there year round. The pinnacle to any Old Faithful Inn visit, whether you are staying overnight or not, is spending time in the Great Hall. As far as man made structures are concerned, there is no fonder or better place in my mind.







With the lamps aglow, the wind whistling outside and my comfy sweater on, I would sit for hours people watching, use a reading table to do a little "UEA weekend" homework assigned by a teacher, and kick up my feet with the siblings and parents after a long day of hiking and walking. I would look up to the crow's nest (which has been out of use for my entire life) and imagine what it would have been like to be serenaded or played to by an orchestra in the "heavens". I imagined what it was like to stay in one of the three "Third Room" suites that cost a million ga-gillion dollars. I never recall a feeling of boredom while I was there. I do remember having feelings of intrigue when I'd happen upon other friends who were also visiting with their families. We would find some of the old couches with fluffy stuffing sitting on wood frames and talk talk talk. There were the hide and seek games that would always start and end in the Great Hall as ally ally oxen free, or just a simple jaunt down the main staircase to visit the gift shop by the main entrance. There was something very special about sharing that weekend with my classmates, as it has made a most indelible impression in my mind, one which I have never, nor will I ever be able to shake. It's as if I made permanent bonds with them after sharing something so sacred to me. For me, no memory in my mind is more cozy and more nostalgic. I savor those memories as I savor my closest of relations.

So....why is the post entitled "Nightmare" and why have I taken so long to get to the point? I wanted to paint a picture of how much this place means to me, even today. Well, back to my dream....Hess had never been to the Inn, and I felt it a deep honor to introduce her to one of my most beloved places on this green earth. The building's facade was unchanged, as was the fun front door with its decorative and twisting 9+ locks that actually work in the winter to keep the place secure. As Hess and I walked in, my stomach twisted as my heart dropped and my mind started to spin. We walked past the front desk into the Great Hall to see that a re-decorating crew had covered all the stately timber pillars with white faux wood paneling, and had painted the paneling to make it resemble a birch forest--and a very unnatural and poor one at that. Instead of taking our first steps into what should have been a room filled with dark browns, grey stone, and golden laquer finish on the wood illuminated with warm oil lamps, we stumbled into a very generic looking (albeit large, tall and airy) hotel lobby. They had placed white carpeting on the floors, covered up the stone fireplace with more white paneling, and had high-teched the place out. Parents and children weren't sitting the traditional rockers, but were sitting in lazy boy recliners with game controls in hand and staring off into space at the hundreds of flat screens in front of them which televised their loud video games. I could hardly breathe. I wanted to scream and cry "INJUSTICE!". I turned to the clerk and asked with tears rolling down my cheeks, "What have they done to my Great Hall?". He looked at me with sad eyes and said, "People want their conveniences, and we are just trying to cater to them. Plus most people aren't interested in all of that old decor anyway, so the hotel thought it best to do some minor updating".

I made myself wake up that instant (something that I can do when I just can't stand to stick around in a dream any longer) and my eyes shot open as I felt my heart racing. It really had just been a HORRIBLE nightmare. There were still some tears in my eyes, and I was scared to fall back asleep in fear that I'd have to go back to that godforsaken place. Luckily, the Old Faithful Inn is a National Landmark and registered with the National Historical Society, so they will never be able to do anything like that to it. I don't usually hold that much stalk in my dreams, and I'm not one to go sharing them with other people, but I just had to get this one off my chest. It really affected me. I just don't know what I'd do if that were to really happen. That's why I had to write about it. Plus, I felt this would be a good way to declare my undying love for Yellowstone National Park and to thank it and the organizations (National Park Services, etc...) and the laws that are in place to help us protect and enjoy these blessed areas.

I want to also publicly declare that its never a good thing to use wood paneling. I understand its a cheap option, but c'mon. That's just my inner wanna-be interior decorator SCREAMING inside.

And I want to let it be known that I love the Inn and hold it so near and dear to my heart. May it stand for years and years to come and continue welcoming visitors who can share in its magic as I have.

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Veritable Smorgasbord

Just to counter what might be considered a "heavy" posting (Just for the record...) I wanted to let y'all in on the fact that somewhere between finishing class this summer and now, I've mentally retreated back into the mind of my childhood and pre-teen years. Like I've posted earlier, I've become a total Potter-holic (no, not a pot-aholic, Harry Potter), and I've been reading books that I passed over as a child like A Wrinkle in Time, The Giver, The Chosen, and a whole host of others. They are really great reads, and even though categorized as 'Children's Lit' they offer A LOT to the adult reader as well.

That's not where it ends. I've also rediscovered some of my all time favorite movies from my childhood, one being the cartoon based on the Newberry Honor Book Charlotte's Web. That has some CLASSIC characters, songs and even some nice lessons. Templeton the rat is just as hilarious at 27 as he was at age 5. And the Goose/Templeton song is just as engaging and ridiculous as I remembered it. Just in case you need a little reminding, this is how their anthem to junk food goes. Don't hold back, just find that inner 8 year old and sing along!




A Veritable Smorgasbord

A fair is a veritable smorgasbord orgasbord orgasbord
After the crowds have ceased
Each night when the lights go out
It can be found on the ground all around
Oh, what a ratly feast!

Melon rinds and bits of hotdogs
Cookie crumbs and rotton cotton candy
Melted ice cream, mustard dripplings
Moldy goodies everywhere

Lots of popcorn, apple cores
Bananna peels and soggy sadwiches
And gobs of gorgeous gook to gobble at the fair

A fair is a veritable smorgasbord orgasbord orgasbord
After the gates are shut
Each night when the lights go out
It can be found on the ground all around
That's where a rat can glut, glut, glut, glut!


Love me some Charlotte's Web.

Friday, August 18, 2006

Just for the record...

I have been asked how I feel about the recent article/interview that was posted on LDS.org regarding homosexuality, and I figured that sharing a brief blog would help those of you understand how I feel about it. I'm usually a man of many words, but today I am going to be concise (those of you who know me well, know that concision is not nor has it ever been my forte) and express it in a way that is meaningful to me.

I am Derek. (Derek=proper noun)
I am gay. (gay=adjective)
I am a gay. (a gay=article+noun)
I am homosexual. (homosexual=adjective)
I am a homosexual. (a homosexual=article+noun)
I am Derek. (see above)
I am out. (out=prepositional/adjectival properties)
I am happy. (happy=adjective)
I am secure. (secure=adjective)
I am loved. (am loved=perfect tense verb form)
I love. (love=verb)
I am Derek.

I trust the relationship between me and my maker, and it's the only one I give credit to when it comes to dealing with sexuality. Therefore, I really do not and will not fret over what was written and said in the article.

Here's the article if anybody would care to take a look.
ARTICLE

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Down with the slum lords

Not that I have ever truly slummed it (except for a three month period in Tirana, Albania during my mission), and I was damned if I was going to start at the age of 27. My cousin Jared, affectionately known as J-Rod, Jerry Farm, Jared-Angel, Jer-bear, and JARED (to be screamed with frustration and fault), and I hopped in his new Honda and made our way up I-15 and then over on I-90 to Seattle for a quick weekend of apartment hunting. And hunting it was. I came prepared with about 20 leads, all of which came crashing down on me in the first 20 minutes of my search. Things go fast in the leasing world, especially when the availability is numbered and the demand is high (and that, my friends, is about as economically minded as you will EVER hear/read from me). Needless to say, it is currently a RENTERS market in Seattle.

After many hours of walking through mice infested, insect ridden, and CRAPPED ON THE FLOOR apartments (no joke), I found a place that was in my budget, close to the school, clean and quiet.



Entrance



Kitchen



Bathroom-just so all y'all won't be scared to poop at my place



Living Room


Now, just remember that you have to ENVISION the place furnished with my things--so yeah, this will pretty much be what it looks like, since I have close to nothing :)

I'm pleased as punch with it. I actually have underground covered parking, and the building has an elevator. I'm on the top floor (4th), and have a nice view of the University Neighborhood and a partial view of Lake Union.

So, now that you've seen the place....COME AND VISIT!!! (after Sept. 8th)

Oh, and here's a picture of J-Rod and D-Rock visiting Mount St. Helen's. Amazing trip, I would really recommend it to anybody who plans on driving north on I-5 from Portland.

Sunday, August 06, 2006

love me some Heidi

Just thought I'd post a fun pic of me and my little Heidels at Cory's going away party. Have fun in Japan, Cory!

If you'd like to visit Heidi's site, click HERE.

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Missing, Misinformed Missiles, Miscarriage, Miserable Marriages, "Miss" Pageants, Mystery

A week that offered a wider variety of events/"material" to experience and react to than usual.

Normally when you get a call from a friend telling you that they are coming home for a family funeral, you would react in a reverent way--one in which you might express your immediate condolences. Call me a bit insensitive, but when Jed informed me that he was coming home for a few days to go to Grandma Atha's (his and Jessica's great grandma's) funeral, I couldn't have been more ecstatic. It had been over three months that I hadn't seen Jed, and even though he was coming back to Salt Lake to mourn, I couldn't have been more (selfishly) happy. It was the best surprise "weekend vacation" that didn't require me to travel that I've ever had. Jed got off the plane, and we really didn't miss a beat the whole time he was here.

If you catch me staring into space, I'm most likely imagining what my life will be like in Seattle, come September. For the most part, I'm consumed with thoughts about my living space; how close I'll be to campus, what my apartment will be like, how much time I'll actually be spending at home versus at school/clinic, if I'll have neighbors, if I'll be neighborly or more reclusive, if it's really going to rain every damn day as they say and how I'll experience the elements in my new home. It's been quite the mystery. Thankfully, I think I'll have a much better idea about my soon-to-be life as I head up to Seattle next week with my cousin Jared to go apartment hunting. Armed with references and hopefully enough money to put down for a nice apartment (to rent), I anticipate that by this time next week I'll be able to provide a better answer for people when they ask how I'm feeling about moving away for grad school. Just as a side note, I've found it equally interesting to hear a lot of people ask why I'm LEAVING for grad school instead of going to the U. These questions come with true intrigue and amazement. My answer, "just wanna see what else is out there". I'm sure my decisions are making some people shake their heads in bewilderment, but that's nothing new.

I've never considered myself to be very paternal. I don't know if it's because I'm gay and for me I have not personally associated being a gay man in a gay relationship with raising kids. Just to stop any confusion, there are lots of great gay couples out there rearing their own families. I just don't see me as being a part of that. When I think about my future, I don't see kids of my own...that is until I heard news of my sister's miscarriage. It was sincerely heartbreaking for me. Two of my sisters have had miscarriages, and due to circumstances during those times, I was not able to be near them as they endured and coped with their losses. This time around I've been able to talk a bit more with Nat, and I have partaken (ever so little, albeit) of her grief, and it struck an emotional chord within me that has never been pricked before. I still don't think I'll have kids, but I guess that recognizing how powerful that loss was for her and some of the feelings I felt about it, I guess that somewhere deep inside me has definitely pondered the idea of raising children?....or at least (and not to be morbid), the sadness of losing one.

Watching Senate members interrogate Rumsfeld and some of his top men during the Senate Arms Services Committee hearing this week made me sick...because it was the first time since our nation has been in Iraq that I've seen our military leaders actually admit to problems and not fight against their opponents statements discouraging our military presence there. We've been watching for over three years some of our nation's leaders go red in the face defending our unilateral pre-emptive actions in the Middle East, not missing a moment to throw out the tired and worn out standbys "freedom, patriotism, terrorism, mass destruction, collateral damage" along with other made words like "compassionativity" and other bull shit. Those of you who know me, know that I realy have nothing good to say about Bush...AT ALL...and even less to say about us being in Iraq. Watching the Senate hearing showed me that the situation is so dire and so out of control that even those who have supported our military efforts and painstakingly never let up on why we should be there NOW can't even stand up for themselves anymore. Civil war in Iraq. What the hell have we created?

You might want to check out some interesting articles in the Salt Lake Trib and the New York times about gay men who are married to women and the issues they are facing.
SL Trib article
NY Times article

And not to just post about death, loss, sadness, happy/unhappy marriages and global blunders....I thought I would end this post on a lighter note. Tomorrow I have the PLEASURE to work not only one pageant....but THREE! Yes, the US Continental Pageant (???) has landed at the Rose Wagner Center for Performing Arts and tomorrow the newly appointed Miss Teen US Continental, Miss US Continental, and Mrs. US Continental will all being their reigns of queens supreme of the US Continent. Isn't that great? I think the event organizers may have taken James Monroe's "Monroe Doctrine" a little bit to heart when coming up with this beauty contest. Thinking that political and physical geography awareness aren't exactly pre-reqs for this one. Yikes. Sounds like a winner of a pageant to me.